Single and Growing in God

So, for the shock of pretty much everyone who knows me... I went on a date today. I kind of liked the guy and I knew he liked me, so I thought, "why not, lets see how it goes." It didn't go very well, I didn't have a good time, and I realized, I actually didn't like the guy. But I learned a lot through it. Now lets back track a little! Today was probably the first day I wasn't with Samantha, and I'm glad, because even though I was really bored and didn't do much, about an hour before I was going on my date, I decided to read my bible to prepare me. I had also been praying and talking to God about this date and  asking him to be the loving Father that he is and to put it all in his hands. I prayed that if it went well, that he come first in the relationship, and that if it didn't go well, that I would trust his plan and what he wanted out of my life. And overall I just prayed that he would protect me, my physical and emotional purity, my heart, and my future, I prayed for him to be the Father that I don't have and to just be with me. I listened to worship music and he really helped me a lot and guided my way.

After this date, I car home and reflected on the time I had. I did not have fun at all, and I know thats not how its supposed to be. I just didn't feel right. So, I put on worship music and just prayed to God. He really made me realize today how thankful I am of him, and how blessed I am to having a living God. It made me think of the video by Eric Ludy that we watched in church (I'll post it below for anyone who has never seen it). I just wanted to say that God is AMAZING beyond belief. Today, he listened to my prayers, he went with me, and he protected me. He turned something that wouldn't otherwise be good, into something amazing, to help me grow in him! I can trust God with my entire future, and that includes finding a perfect man and falling in love. I don't have to have a boyfriend now to be happy, I can use this time of being single to grow in God and to let him grow me into the Godly woman he wants me to be. This isn't to say that I'm not going to go on other dates to see if the guy is the guy, but i may also never need to go on a date to find that out. I don't know, only God knows what my future in his hands holds, but all I know now is that I am His, I am not my own, and I will give everything I am to him, and he will prepare me and help me grow. And when I meet my prince charming, we will then grow together in God and have a relationship guided by my Father.

~Alisha